Princess Jhem

The past months and days have been very difficult for me..

there are those emotionally-challenging events that triggered me..

but then on, I can finally say that I AM MOVING On..

gone are the days when I cry almost every night…

the times when I can’t eat much…

haii…

ang hirap din nun ah?!

magsmile khit super down..

magpretend n kaya mu ihandle lhat..

haii…

nlampasan qoh nan lahat un naun..

and it’s because of the people who were there for me,..

and the person who gave me strength.

I LOVE YOU my dear chickens..

and of course my prince.

nkakasmile ma ko at nakakahinga nan maluwag naun.

=)

I am now ready to say to the people that I am have finally come to accept the fact that things do change…and so the relationship I have with the people I used to be with for almost a year..

Looking back to how we have started makes my tears fall down my cheeks.. Those silly jokes, tears of joy, loud laughters.. All those memories we have shared seemed to just vanished in thin air…

Now, I am finally saying goodbye to those.. I have tried so much to bring back the old times which I thought everyone’s missing.. Yes, perhaps, they miss it just the way I do.. BUt not every one is willing to recall everything.. so, I guess, that’s just the end of it…

I’ll just face the fact that we’re going to END there..

I used to not believe in goodbyes and endings..but now, it had changed.

goodbye to the family I used to loved…

AU REVOIR…

This is the time when I had so many things to do and decide upon, but it seemed so hard…

it hurts so much to be in this situation and yet I cannot do anything to make it easy, not only for me but for the people around me…

I’m starting to lose up..
I feel so lost and empty…

I feel disappointed about myself…

Disappointed that I can’t do the same thing I used to do — to ease the pain, esp. to the people I hold close to my heart…

I feel so much of a failure…

and I hate all of these feelings…=(